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love, or lack thereof


Matthew 24:12New American Standard Bible (NASB)

12 Because lawlessness is increased, most people’s love will grow cold.


I hear more and more of sadness and pain.

A man leaves his son in the hot car for eight hours after googling “how long will it take for animal to die in hot car”. Meanwhile he’s sexting a teenage girl.

A young couple break into an elderly mans home and one beats him while the other tries to open the safe.

An older man sexually assaults his girlfriends 20 year old daughter, who is “severely mentally disabled”.


Can I stop now? Are you getting the point?

There is increased lawlessness because people either don’t worry that they’ll get caught or they don’t care. Maybe they think they deserve whatever it is they are trying to get as they break the law. In the above cases that would be 1)freedom from parenthood 2) money to buy drugs 3)the control over a woman, and sex

Why do we feel we deserve anything good? Jeremiah says”The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?”
Who can know it? We don’t seem to understand or know WHY people do these horrible things, but I propose it is simple, the heart is wicked, the heart is deceitful and lies to us, it is unreliable as a measure for what is good or for what is wrong.
How many people do you know who’ve had marriages break up or nearly destroyed because of infidelity? Even after 40 some years a marriage can fall apart for that reason. And if you ask the offending party they may say “I felt I deserved it.” or “My spouse wasn’t giving me the attention I deserved, so no wonder I went after this person who gave me attention.” or “Yes, I cheated and now I want to be with him/her and I don’t care or worry about how it will affect the kids, this is what I want.” Do you see the pattern? I I I , what I want, what I deserve, what I wasn’t getting. And same goes for the crimes mentioned above. They weren’t thinking of their victims, they were only thinking of themselves. Selfish. What does the Bible say about selfishness. Let’s see. Here’s what we aught to be doing:

Philippians 2:3

Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves;

But when we don’t obey this:
Galatians 5:19-20

Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions,

And here’s an example of what that looks like:
James 3:14-16

But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart, do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth. This wisdom is not that which comes down from above, but is earthly, natural, demonic. For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there is disorder and every evil thing.

AHH you see that? This wicked behavior, this jealousy and selfish ambition is not from God, it is from demons. So how can you battle this? How can you arm yourself against such things? For starters you need to seek the face of God, He is standing right there waiting for you to call to Him. Trust that He died for your sins when He came down as a man Christ Jesus, believe that death could not hold Him and He literally, physically rose from death on the third day, and surrender your life to Him. Oh what a freeing feeling it is. When we do this we allow our sins to fall on Him, and accept that His death paid for them all. You see our sins, even one little sin, is enough to keep us from the eternal presence of a Holy God. You may think that’s not fair, but it is HIS planet, and we are HIS creation and these are HIS standards.
Romans 6:5-7New American Standard Bible (NASB)

5 For if we have become united with Him in the likeness of His death, certainly we shall also be in the likeness of His resurrection, 6 knowing this, that our old self was crucified with Him, in order that our body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be slaves to sin; 7 for he who has died is freed from sin.

So while we may still sin after we have surrendered our lives to Jesus, our sins past present and future are covered by His sacrifice on the cross. Jesus then continues to stand in the gap, to “vouch” for us in modern terms.
Romans 8:33-34New American Standard Bible (NASB)

33 Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; 34 who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us.

So you see, once you have agreed that you have sin, acknowledged that even your small sin is enough to keep you from eternity with God, trusted Him for your salvation, then He will continue to intercede for you. He does other things to. He makes a way for you to escape your temptation. Did you know that? Did you know you don’t HAVE to make the bad choice, there’s always a way out.
1 Corinthians 10:13 (NASB)

13 No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it.

Come to Him, call on Him and seek His face. Even if you don’t really believe but you might have a niggling feeling that you’re missing something, that you just aren’t quite fulfilled in life, I challenge you to get in a quiet place without any distractions and just pray in your mind “God, if you are real, please show yourself to me. God, I am doing all I know how and still feel empty inside. If You made me and You know how best I tick, then You can make me into what You want me to be. Show me how to do that please.” Then find your bible or use biblehub or biblegateway and start reading through John. Countless souls have come to Jesus through the reading of John. Maybe your soul is next? I pray it is. I love you friend, I don’t know who you are but I love you. I want you to be eternally saved and not eternally separated from God.
Come to Jesus and live.


A divine appointment


Last night I decided to walk down to the beach after taking a ridiculously long soak in the bath. Scott never likes me to wander off alone so he recruited Jack to go with me.


Jack hollers back to me “you’re walking slow tonight mom!”


We arrive at the beach and look for the sandcastle we’d built yesterday to no avail. I see a woman come out and sit on the bulkhead. I take this picture.


Jack says the bugs are eating him up and he’s heading back home. I walk behind him slowly, the woman says hello to me. I feel the Holy Spirit moving me in her direction. I ask her how she’s doing tonight. Her wobbly smile betrays the truth and she starts to cry. “It’s a nice place to come for a cry.” I say, she chortles softly. “Tell a stranger your troubles” I say as I sit down next to her. She talks and I listen. A little while goes by and Sam arrives to fetch me after hearing Jack’s report to Scott that “mom is talking to a stranger”. He sits quietly as we continue talking. I end by placing my hand on her shoulder and praying for her. God wants her to know, and He wants YOU to know, you are not alone. He sees you, He knows your pain and He is loving you right through it all. You are one in a billion, and He loves you. You may have no one to talk to but He is listening. After ALL is said and done, after this life is done, HE IS THERE. Put one foot in front of the other and do the next thing. God is still on the throne. And remember, NONE OF THIS TOOK GOD BY SURPRISE.

Thank you God for this divine appointment. You are always working around me, I just had to show up, listen up and speak up. All glory and honor and praise are YOURS.

the grey matter matters


I lie awake at night and think, and emote, and pray, and cry.
I think about the news today; the wars and fighting in Ukraine and Iraq, the children killed in Israel, the people starving in Syria and South Sudan, the flooding in Serbia, the list goes on.
Wars and rumors of wars, famine, earthquakes in various places (Arizona anyone??)
And I just wonder, is this it? Would we really be seeing the beginning of the birth pangs that Jesus talked about almost 2000 years ago?

My dad always said that EVERYONE (followers of Christ that is) wants to believe that they are in the “end of days” because we all want to see the appearing of our Lord who we have put our faith in without seeing in person. But I’m finding that my “christian” friends are NOT looking forward to seeing Jesus, they aren’t afraid of dying, they just don’t want to die because life is still pretty good here. They still have things to do, places to go, money to make. And I wonder, do they even get it? Have they ever truly understood the evil that is in this world, and the enormous Holiness that is life in the presence of our Creator? Do they understand that life in heaven is a life without any negative thought ever??
Maybe they’ve never experienced real pain, maybe things in this life have been too good to them, maybe no one has ever really challenged their spiritual contentedness.
But then I think, I haven’t experienced real pain, I haven’t been imprisoned for my faith or watched a loved one slaughtered before me, I’ve never been told I have to pay the government in order to keep worshipping as I wish. (These things are happening people!) I’ve had it pretty good. I was born a caucasian in America, things given to me that many had to fight for. Never homeless, I had both parents and three meals a day. But somehow God has put in me a craving to be with Him. It’s not a suicidal thing, you shouldn’t be worrying about me (yes I’ve been asked “should I worry about you?” and people see this as depression)
I guess I’ve just come to the part of this life where I’ve seen enough, I’ve had enough and I can tell it’s not getting any better until Jesus returns. But here I am, so what am I to do while I wait? What AM I doing while I wait? I am spending time in prayer for the lost and the lukewarm, I am praying for the churches to start to preach the WHOLE gospel and not just the fuzzy warm bits, I am sharing Jesus with my friends, family, and neighbors, and I continue to disciple our sons. I am still learning more about God, reading new things in His word *almost* every day, checking the news, the sky and the earth for any more signs. We don’t know WHEN He is coming, but we are told that we will know the signs, we’ll be aware of the time IF we are looking for it.
So here’s where I go each day to keep on top of “things”.
news via google for latest from ALL sources considered legit
spaceweather for latest about the sun/astroids/solar flares
earthquake-usgs for latest worldwide earthquake information
standupforthetruth a good place to find information on the apostasy happening in churches today

And weekly
olivetreeviews a weekly radio show I like to listen to

rapturereadynews a place for “end times” related news, not all sources are reliable though…

And for good preaching ( if you’re half starved like I am most days)

CBC of Beaufort SC 


What are you doing to prepare your heart and the hearts of those around you to be ready for the return of Jesus?

Any good sites I should add to my list?

Peace and light,


Praying for Joy, Peace and Thankfulness


These three things, Joy, Peace and Thankfulness have been on the top of my prayers lately. I am desperate to be thankful in all things. I find myself so anxious when things don’t happen quickly, and that leads me to pray for peace. I find myself a little grumpy at this interim, and that leads me to pray for Joy. I have this desire to call all my friends and ask them to pray for me, but then I remember, I can pray!   So I do. I pray Lord, give me peace in YOUR timing, give me joy in THIS moment, and show me how to be thankful for what You are doing and are going to do. 

I get antsy, and then the phone rings. The gal on the line says she ran into someone she grew up with and he’s moving out of his house. She says he’s interested in renting it out. She meets me and shows me the house, and I fall in love (as much love as you can for wood and stone and glass). 

our new home, from the front

our new home, from the front

IMG_0393our new home, from the back. 


This is a great GREAT place. I prayed for something that wasn’t too big or too small. It looks a LOT bigger than it is. I prayed for a place with hard wood/tile/NON carpet floors (because of the boys allergies, and easier to keep clean). This place has NO CARPET. I prayed for a place close to Scott’s work, and close to town. This is both of those. It is such a clear answer to prayer, and we are so happy and thankful for this gift God has so richly given us. I am blown away, and kind of in shock at the abundant blessing. 

We are aiming to move in June 1, so only three more weeks of hotel life! We are kind of getting the hang of it, but I know the dogs are bored to tears not being able to get about and sniff everything.  I’ll post more pictures of the home here as soon as we are inside. It’s really neat! 

“two weeks, two days” by my mom.


Please excuse me if the entry title is not correct. These last few weeks have flown by and also seemed like a lifetime. They have been like walking through jello, being in an altered state, dazed, like what you see in movies when people are intoxicated or drugged. There have been times of precise alertness and times of confusion and memory lag. I go to the freezer to get something from the pantry. I go from the front of the house to the office in the back and wonder what I am there for. It takes me easily three times as long to accomplish any task.

There is an incredible amount of paper work and telephone calls after someone dies. Although we had prepared as best we knew how, there are still many, many loose ends to tie up. And I’m doing this on two or less cylinders. Thankfully, I have very good friends in place who are walking with me, talking me through all of this and reminding me of conversations with bankers, employers, lawyers, etc. They also are making sure I eat and check up on my sleep schedule. What do people do when they have to face this without dear friends and Jesus? I can’t imagine!

Lily is a comfort even as she grieves. She is mirroring all of the feelings I’m experiencing. Joy: She exultantly greets Papa in the morning on the patio, as she looks at the clouds. “Hi Papa! Good morning!” Sorrow: she mimics me as I sob or gasp for breath. After a few mimics, it becomes comic relief and I have to laugh. She expresses anger, “I don’t like Papa!” When I ask why, she says, “He is happy and we are sad!” She has her own grief. After watching the video from the service: the first time she laughed and pointed out everyone: “there’s Papa when he was young! There’s Papa when he was a baby! There’s me! There’s Paige, etc.” Second time through, same response. She wanted to watch a third time and when I said no, because she needed to eat breakfast, she cried inconsolably. I relented and let her watch a third time and she sat silently and cried silently. Afterward I hugged her for a long time.

This is a continuation of the journey Wayne and I started when he was first diagnosed. Only this leg of the trip, I’m travelling without my life partner. People use the term surreal. I’m going to have to look that word up.

One thing I am happy about: I dearly wanted to travel with Wayne right up to the door that separates earth and eternity. God granted me that desire. I can rest in knowing we fulfilled our vows, “till death do us part.” Thanks be to God.